The Life We were Searching for

why he has come into the world. Man’s mind is not able to determine the answers to these questions. He still wants to know the answers to such questions. Even though these questions may not take the form of words and be uttered by every person’s tongue, they keep man’s soul restless and sometimes well up with such intensity that they can even drive a person mad. The world knows Friedrich Engels as an atheist. But his atheism was a reaction to his environment that manifested in his life much later. His initial years were spent in a religious setting. When he grew up, he became dissatisfied with conventional religion. Reflecting on this state of his, at the age of nineteen, he wrote in a letter to a friend: “I pray every day, almost all day long. I pray that the truth may be given to me. I have done this since doubts assailed me, but I cannot return to our faith. … I write these lines with tears in my eyes; it is hard to control my emotions, but I feel that I will not be lost and will find God, to whom I aspire with all my heart.” (David Riazanov: Essays on the History of Marxism,” p. 36, copied from “Max Eastman: Marx, Lenin and the Science of Revolution,” p. 148) This was the natural urge for the search for Reality that had welled up in the young Engels. But he could not satisfy this urge, and becoming dissatisfied with conventional Christianity, he lost himself in political philosophies. The truth is that the awareness of the One God, the Creator is embedded in human nature by birth itself. It is an essential component of man’s unconscious. This urge is present in